Solitude
From Eluminatus
Solitude
Three candles,
Surrounded by a circle
Of votives and tapers:
Grounding.
Creating Sacred Space.
Seduction.
I light them ... and think of you
And us -- individually, collectively.
I think about how the thought of you (and us)
Grounds me.
Makes me aware of the sacred space that surrounds you.
Seduces me.
I think about how thoroughly you've seduced me,
And I think about the scrap of paper I found this afternoon
With the carefully-written equation
Love = trust pretty darn absolutely
I feel (or imagine) your presence.
In the air ... on my skin ...
In my mind ...
Throughout my being.
I remember (or imagine) other seductive times with you,
Grounded and sacred,
By candlelight
And other magic illumination.
I remember (or imagine)
The first time we met ... and the next ...
The first time we held hands,
The first time I told you I loved you,
Every moment we've spent together,
And all the moments with you I've remembered,
Imagined, replayed, anticipated,
And fantasized about.
And then I realize
I'm thinking too much
And watch the candles
And experience you.
-- December 15, 2006
