Meditations on desire
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Desiring the asymptote
(for D, October 31, 2007,
originally from Meditations on desire)
Of all the inhabitants
Of the space of desire,
One stands out:
The one I've loved
And desired the most deeply,
In the most different ways.
My desire for her
In my desire for everybody else.
And my desire for everybody else
Reflects back on
My desire for her.
For twenty-one years
I've shared the most with her,
Done the most with her,
Had the most fun with her,
Grown the most with her.
Spent the most time with her
In the space of desire.
What an anomaly.
Art and beauty mold time and space.
It's "now" when I write this, when you read this,
Whenever we think or dream of each other.
And no matter the distance,
We can share sensations as well.
Close your eyes.
Whose fingers do you feel brushing against you?
Asynchronous immediacy. Remote physicality.
Pinch me feel me kiss me hold me.
(to Katia, april-may, 2006)
(originally in Meditations on desire)
I choose left
(March 2007, originally in Meditations on desire)
Surrounded by a circle
Of votives and tapers:
I think about how the thought of you (and us)
Makes me aware of the sacred space that surrounds you.
I think about how thoroughly you've seduced me,
And I think about the scrap of paper I found this afternoon
With the carefully-written equation
Love = trust pretty darn absolutely
I feel (or imagine) your presence.
In the air ... on my skin ...
In my mind ...
Throughout my being.
I remember (or imagine)
The first time we met ... and the next ...
The first time we held hands,
The first time I told you I loved you,
-- December 15, 2006
As we dance together,
Across the room,
(April, 2007, from Space of desire) (revised October 2007)
The people I'm there with
In their different ways
They are desire.
Any time I feel desire
It triggers thoughts
in different ways
on our intersecting paths.
Whenever I think of desire, I think of them, in the space of desire, and desire them more.
Whenever I remember desire, I remember them, in the space of desire, and desire them more..
Whenever I dream of desire, I dream of them, in the space of desire, and desire them more..
Whenever I experience desire, I experience them, in the space of desire, and desire them more..